HOla HoLa hoLA!!!!
This week in the MTC was awesome. Every week I grow so much. It´s hard, but I love it. I gain so much understanding through having experience. I love it! This is how life should be. I´m determined to keep it this way after my mission.
KIM IS HERE!!!! She got here Wednesday and I couldn´t find her all day. So at night I randomly went searching in the dorm rooms on the floor above ours and ran right into her! It´´s been so awesome having my best friend go through this experience with me! I´ll have to get pictures of us together and send them to you.
Grandma and Grandpa~ I was wondering if you could send me any stories or pictures of my dad on his mission? I'd love to hear about the kind of missionary he was, what he learned, and funny stories.
I've learned some very important lessons this week. I've had so many faith-building experiences that have strengthened my testimony and brought me greater understanding and happiness the old fashioned way (work and hard times).
I've realized that I'm really hard on myself. Really hard. So when something doesn't go perfectly right, I get super depressed. If I'm lacking desire or motivation one day to work and be happy or I have a lesson that doesn't go well or one thing goes wrong, I beat myself up over it. I tell myself that life is too hard and this is how it will always be and I can never improve and I'll never be happy or successful or really be the best person that I want to be. Satan totally jumps right in when I'm having a moment like this. I would get confused when I was doing everything I was supposed to and was either messing up or feeling a lack of motivation or wasn't having an "Enos moment" every time I planned a lesson or read the scriptures or was obedient. I finally realized that THATS NORMAL. If we were super happy and filled with the Spirit so strongly and strong and successful allllllll the time, we wouldn't actually fully comprehend that happiness. We would just be going through the motions and we wouldn't understand the happy moments when we had them. "The sad times on your mission will outnumber the happy ones, but the happy moments will outweigh the sad ones." That's already been true for me in the MTC. It's like I forgot that I'm human and farrrrr from perfect, that no one is ever happy all the time. This is why Adam and Eve were cast out of the Garden, so they could gain understanding and really cherish the happiness they found. If we were never sad we'd never be happy. I'm so thankful Heavenly Father loves me so much that He allows me to have these rough times in order to really be thankful for the happy moments.
From this experience I also had to remember what life is all about: growing and progressing one little bit at a time. I would always compare myself unfavorably to others and their accomplishments and feel like it was impossible for me to change. But when Sacrament came on Sunday, I remembered that Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ are ready to immediately forgive as soon as we have a change of heart. This whole plan is all for US! I couldn't do anything without the Atonement of my Savior and I love Him very much. Everyone in the world needs to know that they have a Savior!
Last night we had a devotional from one of the Church's lawyers. It was so awesome. He talked all about religious freedom in different countries, and what sorts of things stop the work from progressing on the earth. He took us through a bunch of statistics and showed us how the Lord's hand is in every detail of the work spreading forth on the earth! He said 70% of the world's population lives with HIGH resstrictions on religious freedom. He told us about different laws in different countries and interesting stories about the times he's had to be a part of passing different laws in different lands and "opening the doors of nations" to the gospel, for missionaries to go proselyte and establish the church. Of the stories he shared, it just made you think "holy cow, the Lord really is in every single detail of this, opening hearts and doors and everything so the gospel can move forward!" He said church membership is increasing exponentially: 54% every decade! It made me want to learn so much more. That would be so awesome to be a part of moving the work forward on the earth through negotiating and creating laws and what have you.
Okay thank you SO MUCH for the packages everyone has sent me!!!! Getting mail is the bomb but getting packages is the BEST. Grandma and Grandpa thank you so much for the package with the picture! It was so sweet!!! And mom thank you so much for the watches, they are perfect. They are so cute! I love them! I sent you a check this week for my car and the watches--let me know if you got it.
I'll send you my bank info this week.
Yesterday I met a Sister Bardin going to Tucson Spanish speaking! She is the only person I've met in the whole MTC so far going there! She is from ROy Utah and is very sweet.
I also met another Wadsworth yesterday!!! I got her contact info for after the mish.
Yesterday I bore my testimony in Spanish in sacrament meeting. It was great. I LOVE SPANISH. I feel like it's seriously always been in my blood. I've always loved the language and the culture and the FOOD and just everything about it. I feel like this was meant to be.
Kim told me that before she came into the MTC she had a dream that my dad would be helping me a lot, especially with my Spanish. He already has.
I feel like I've finally gotten to the point now where I can look back at day 1 and say "look how far I've come!" I can finally measure my progress and recognize that I've changed and learned so much. MISSION IN TWO WEEKS AHHHH!!!!!!!
It's been chilly here. There's snow on the mountains and it's so beautiful! I love it. It was gently snowing this morning when we left our dorm. We had a nice temple walk yesterday. All of the trees were bold yellow and red. It was so beautiful.
I'm just so HAPPY. I'm loving life. It hasn't been easy so far but it has been so worth it and I have grown so much as a person already. I can't wait to be in the field! Ah that's so crazy!
Well I love you all so much and think about you every day. I couldn't do this without all of your prayers. I need them so much. Thank you!
Yo se que Dios y Jesucristo viven, y JesuCristo es mi Salvador. Arrepentimiento funciona y es possible para cambiar cada dia. El amo.
Dad thanks so much for the letters in Spanish! Hahah I love them!!
Well wish me luck with another week!
Don't forget that I get to CALL you in the airport when I fly to Arizona. I'll get you the details-- I get my travel plans this week!!! CRazy!!!!
Kay love you all!!!!!!!
Hermana Wadsworth
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